Part Time..........whatever......UGH!!!!

OK, so now this girl hasn't spoken to me in the past, oh, I don't know.........month? I mean, what am I supposed to think about this situation. Maybe she got pissed at waiting on me to make a move. Thing is she's never actually flirted with me to give me any indication that she's interested in me so I didn't know. Yeah, she know how to text her feelings, but I find that to be an indication of her being shy or something. I already know she's never been in love, and I'm pretty sure she's probably still holding onto me because I'm the first guy who's treated her like a human being, but it's getting tired. I feel like I'm getting bored of her shyness because it's not making me come out of my shell. I can be shy, but if the girl acts like we're just friends, what am I supposed to do. she only got affectionate with me when we were texting and that was annoying, because she can't express her feelings through the phone except for texting how she felt. I don't like that at all. I tried to endure it, but it just persisted. I take it that THAT has been her experience with men, but come on. If a man comes on to you with genuine attraction, you should at least try to keep his attention. when we'd speak, all I would get is a matter-of-fact description of her, and it was annoying. Yeah, I got that she likes being affectionate, but she would describe it as though she were describing some museum, or, in other words, boring. She told me that she was going to call me after ME calling her on or after Thanksgiving day and I don't think I'm going to hear from her after that. I think she's incapable of expressing herself and that's sad, because I really like her. I think she's gone through a lot while getting to know her but I'm not trying to save her. She's got three kids from a man who didn't love her or who she never loved at all. I don't know how to think about that, because how can you NOT love someone and have children with them. That disturbed me. I know I was going to judge her anyways, so to date her might not be a good idea. The fact that she smoked weed didn't bode well with me either so I guess it's probably best if we just didn't get together. I'm glad I'm taking my time with women these days because it eliminates a lot of heartache with someone you really didn't have any feelings for in the first place. I respect her and her plight, but I just think she just might not be for me, and I'm OK if she doesn't want to know anything about me. I can be an asshole with women I don't care for, and it's happened before, so I have been trying to be mature about the situation by taking my time with getting to know them to see if, by getting to know them, I might want to further the relationship. I have no problem in getting to know them while not wanting to FUCK them in the process.....but some just want to fuck because they haven't had any in a while.  I'd rather not participate in that type of activity out of anxiety or desperation, because I do call them desperate. STDs are easy to get when you're that promiscuous and I'd rather not be that way. I enjoy being loyal to one woman, but I DO have to get to know them.  Unfortunately, I think that she's not my type.  I would like to think that she's my type but I think her having three kids really just got me nervous, and maybe I shouldn't have started talking to her. dating a girl with three kids can be costly especially when the kids are in their teens. They're not cheap, and you don't want to act like the asshole step-parent, and eventually it's going to get on my nerves that I can't afford them as I can't afford one child now. I have non for that reason.  Oh, well, I hope she's doing well and that she achieves her goals.