As I enter yet another birthday and I face yet another health dilemma, I am also maturing to the point that I no longer want to act like some Peter-Pan-Syndrome-having type of guy. I have seen most of my friends who are still acting as if they are still 18 years old. They act as if they feel they have no responsibilities to anything, but I disagree. I have a responsibility to care for myself and I am doing so, but in doing so I have realized that the way that I dress is a reflection of the lifestyle I have. I know that I've always liked to dress in a unique manner, but doing so can be curse because most people DO adhere to standards, but I used to hate those. Now I've come to the realization that looking good is a part of who I am. I mean, I am a Leo so I already love myself. It's the dressing up part that I need to tweak a bit. I know how to dress it's just that sometimes I make bad decisions when it comes to buying clothes and they usually end up in a dark corner never to bee seen again. I have to be more aware of the dimensions of my body so I can buy the clothes that fit me correctly. I have bought me over-sized pants at times when I wore a certain pair of sneaker thinking it was fine to wear this, only to find out that another pair of sneakers make my pants look bigger to the point that they're dragging on the ground. They either get damaged or soiled from walking on the streets in them. I am reading on how to measure myself, even thinking about buying me some measuring tape. There's amazon so buying small things for me is nothing. I will probably order the measuring tape soon as I log off here, :).
That is one aspect as to how I am growing up. eliminating people who are not going to affect me in my progress on towards the future. There are some either on FB or on Twitter who are just plain foolish and they contribute nothing to my progress as I am trying to better myself financially and career-wise. I have never had any type of counseling. I usually just did stuff on my own since my mother was no help in my growing up. I'm surprised I didn't have any kids in the process but I never really wanted to have kids due to NOT wanting them growing up the way I did. So I'm slowly but surely getting rid of the people who are nothing but a bunch of either hoodrats or people who have no ambition. some on FB are OK but you communicate with them on FB. I am starting to stray from FB because of the Privacy nonsense that's been going on, and I really don't want my identity stolen. I have tried to school my best friend's younger brother in going to school, but he just doesn't sign up, and it's really pissing me off because I want him to succeed and not end up a working class dude who realizes he needs to grow up and decides to take up a vocation as a result. Most of the time people who do that don't get careers, they just get jobs they hate and only take it for the money, which should not be a factor in getting a career. I'm lucky I have a job I enjoy, but that's not stopping me from getting my education to better myself more than just education-wise, but mentally. I am a thinker and I love dissecting problems to death, but I also want to be more socially accessible if that makes any sense. I don't want to NOT know what people are talking about as I get more well-rounded. I have been to parties at work where I didn't get what most people were talking about because they seemed to talk about intellectual stuff. I'm not into that unless the person is dummer than me. I can't help but talk smarter than them just to teach them something new. I am like that in a way. In any case, alot of friends that I have (or don't have) I'm either ignoring in person or just plain not communicating with them. There's no need to waste time with them because you don't get anything out of it. You get a gossip here and there and probably the same conversation you had in a prior conversation. I have a friend like that and he's already ex-communicated so I'm OK with that. I just don't need to small talk with people. I need people who talk about stuff that pumps you up. ambitious people usually make you more pumped to keep doing what you're doing. this friend I have always says he likes hanging out with me because we have an intellectual conversation, but you really think about it, he's always talking about the same things: old friends' gossip, some 80s singer that he loves like Cindy Lauper, Ricky Martin, or MADONNA....and boy let him talk about Madonna and he'll go on forever. Of course he didn't grow up like me, so in a sense I like him because he did finish his education. He does contradict himself at times because he's always trying to pump me to finish my education by giving me unrealistic scenarios because I live by myself. I can't just take a sabbatical from my job like he has because I don't live with my parents, like he did. Another thing is I get my job by applying for them. He got his job by being recruited. He made no efforts in finding a job. He's also not a risk-taker so to me he's pretty much worthless. He does act two-faced at times and that's a turn off. He has friends he goes to fancy restaurants with and with me he just goes to bars. He's also a cheapskate, drinking cheap beer as opposed to a beer that has some substance, such as Sam Adams(my personal favorite) or a craft beer. He's not experienced with the real world like I am so he doesn't know the realities of the real world like I do. The crazy thing is that he's older than me. He should be married by now, but I have a suspicion that he's gay. I don't mind that, but just come out with it already. Everybody thought Ricky Martin was gay and he finally came out a couple of years ago. My friend should do the same because he's pretty much on that inclination. He rarely talks about having a girlfriend, and when he does he's pretty brief. He's unlike me, who talks forever about the girl in his life. He's even gotten quiet around a girl I was talking to when she came to visit me one time.
Well, anyways, I am grown man and I am going to act like one from now on. It seems like a long road, but a road that has to be taken nevertheless.
TTYL
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