LOL

So I find out my ex from two years ago got back with her ex with whom she'd broken up before she met me. She had him on her mind while being with me, and I knew that. She had gotten a call while I was at her place. more like a text message. When she got it, she'd acted as though I should react mad or something. acting all scared, and I didn't care since I'd been with her for about a month or so. Anyways, she'd been on his mind, and one thing I don't care for is a woman who's still got her ex on her mind, because it never really goes anywhere. come to think of it, I think a bunch of women I've dated date me because they want to forget their exes. it's fine with me as long as I fuck 'em. She wasn't even good in bed at all, so to me it wasn't worth trying to act better, I just let her do what she had to do and eventually she left me. She left me, a man who has no children of his own, for a man who's got children already. She's got an attachment already, and I'll bet he's got no future to speak of. She won't last with him, I'm sure. He's already made his mistake having a child out of wedlock whereas I don't have any. I'm a catch for the right girl. She's still young and looking for her soul mate, of which he is not. She's disillusioned with Spain now, but sooner or later HE will be the rut that she runs into, and she might end up pregnant with his SECOND child, and her first, only to be left fatherless. He's probably acting young and addicted to her wild pussy even though she can't fuck and me, being 7 years older, and more experienced, know that she's an amateur when it comes to sex. But damn, the actress chick was about the same age or so and I know she can fuck better than this girl. I think she was always anxious because she was always trying too hard to please me, but I was fine doing my thing. It's like she was trying to prove something to me, but all it did was get me annoyed.
Well, good luck, because it will not last. You're a type A personality and type a's don't mess with the guy you're dating. He'll just be that, your "novio" and nothing else.

Sat Mornings

OK, so what the hell is up with women these days? I just had some stupid argument over texting with this damn girl who, although, is around my age...acts like a 12 year old. texting gets people into problems because the sentiment is taken the wrong way, especially if the other person refuses to talk to you. I swear I'mma have to be a dog with women these days, because seriously...I can't take them seriously anymore. First they say they want a relationship, then, while getting to know you, they start acting like they don't...so instead of telling you to fuck off, they parlay it as though I'm about to hurt them physically. Unless I literally fly off the handle...they won't say shit. just acting all passive-agressive on me. I swear this broad got on my fucking nerves. Acting like she likes me, inviting me to the beach and shit. and THEN she tells me she wants my friendship...which is bullshit. She was weird anyways, but fucking her would've been nice. Don't like what I said, don't read my fucking blog, BITCH!!!!
anyways, I'm going to resort to treating women like bitches and whores, who cares how they feel. Being the nice guy is not what it's cracked up to be. Most women want an asshole, and I've been that for some..but not all. I guess I will just have to be one for the rest of my prospective hoes...yes, HOES...don't like it, fuck you, DON'T READ MY BLOG, BITCH!!!!...

if this sounds like I'm insecure, go ahead and say that, but whatever, my mom never treated me like shit, so I have no reason to hate women. and I don't, but being a nice guy is getting me nowhere, but sex and headaches...You can't be with a girl for too long before they start catching feelings for you and when you fuck them they start acting as though you both are an ITEM, which is bullshit because a nut is just a NUT...nothing more, nothing less. I can do the chivalry shit until I get some ass, then that shit goes out the window. no need for it anymroe, they are pretty much clay in your hands, and I've taken advantage of that with some, not all.

the other day, my ex was ranting about her friends who have no ambition, yet she has no ambition...what a concept..LMAO!!!!!! I had to laugh at the bitch because she was seriously reflecting upon her failures and probably didn't realize it, but then again, she's pretty absent-minded as I've always noticed.

damn, all I wanted from that Domonique chick was just a fuck...she's tall as hell and skinnier than a chic-o-stik...so I mean, what can I do with her dumbass...oh, and she's uneducated, which I hate. as I got to know her I realized she's not as smart as I thought she'd be, but whatever, I'd fuck her.

Anyways,

funny how people

I just read a post from my ex's blog talking about how she doesn't understand why people have no ambition or are comfortable with life the way they make of it....YET here she is, a fucking teacher...a Spanish teacher at that...and she has some fucking nerve talking. You know that saying, "those who can, do, those who can't, teach!!" she fits that persona. She's been wondering what the fuck to do with her life, yet, all she knows is Spanish. That's it. Nothing new about that, it's the easiest shit to learn and teach. You can't make a career out of being fluent in Spanish. Yeah, you can teach and it's a comfortable life, but that's probably all that you can do. I remember she didn't know what she wanted to be all the while asking me what I wanted to be, even though my degree was Business and Political Science. Those are degrees that I'm working on so I can be something and contribute. Being a fucking Spanish teacher doesn't do jack shit but teach kids about Spanish so I have to wonder what's going through her head. She doesn't know what she wants to do either yet here she is talking about people who have no ambition. She's always said that  I was lucky for working at an Ivy League college, yet she went to one and Decided to take the easiest programs...Spanish, all through and through, Even went all the way to Master it, LOL....I mean, I know Spanish and she may know more of the dictionary version than me, but that doesn't get you far. All it does is make you get around easier in Spanish-speaking countries.

Why would she think like that is my question. OK, A*****a, you're not doing anything about your life yourself, all you're doing is Teaching, AND you're teaching Spanish at that. Everybody I know that took spanish in HS didn't do anything with it, no matter what these spanish teachers tell you about being more productive in  the U.S. because you have a second language. That is such bullshit and they know it. They just told you that so that they could keep their jobs. The word of the day is JOB SECURITY. alot of people lose sight of what's lying beneath the surface of what people say and mean these days. it's like they don't analyze shit until they are too late. And you do this alot becuase you fail to see the big picture. I remember you wanted to be a career counselor, but yet you fail to find one yourself.
Why act as though you're different, when in reality, you are just the same as everybody in here. I swear you are special A******a.  You really don't analyze anything until someone points it out to you.

I've had Spanish teachers who never inspired me to enjoy my native tongue, because it was just a job to them, their comfort zone, and trust me, if and when I get my degree I could teach Spanish too, WITHOUT A MASTER'S DEGREE.

if you were a Science or a Math teacher, maybe I'd consider you making a change, but a Spanish teacher is doing nothing but getting by with that bullshit. Nobody needs spanish to get a job in the U.S. even if it was a global organization. to get an entry level position you don't need any DAMN SPANISH, and this is coming from a Spanish-speaker who's native tongue IS spanish.  what are you contributing really?

Late Night Shit

Ok, so I'm thinking and I am starting to think about all the shit that this broad was saying to me and I really think that she thought that she was disillusioned or something. I mean what the hell would you act as though  you are going somewhere when you are spending more money then you are making? I hope that she does make it so I can post her not-so-photogenic photo up online...just for my own purpose th  I won't even label it by her name so she won't have to find it on Google. with any luck, her memory will be shot from all the booze that she won't remember when I took it...she already doesn't remember when it came out. She's a boozin' bitch is the fact that I didn't like her...she drinks in excess that I thought was overwhelming for someone her age. I drink but damn, I don't drink hard liquor. She has a favorite liquor and everytyhing. I don't put my faith on bullshit materials like liquor. People that put their beliefs or reliance on bullshit materials deserve the shit that comes to them becuase it's not real...migth as well call it some fucking religion. I don't stick to many thing, alot actually, tha'ts why I think I am STABLE...unlike her dumbass would like to call me about my emotions. yes, I am ranting, but who gives a fuck. I know my worth, and she doesn't know hers. it's apparent by the way she referred to herself as though she were worth nothing in front of me, giving me an unappealing look to ignore and, gradually, not like at all. saw a movie where she's in, no one knows it but the actualy people who act and actor wannabes, so the general public don't know about her....I think it's such bullshit, and she tries to make that  her bread and butter at 30...wow...OK, then...good luck with your movie career. Lord only knows I'd be dating one of your actress friends had we been together anyways, since I AM a pretty boy, :D

Now that I think about it

Today's it's raining like crazy and I have to get home so I can study for my PoliSci class(have to keep pursuing my dreams, :D)...I just heard a couple days ago that my job will be relocating my office...WTF? seriously, these people get on my fucking nerves when it comes to work because they can't just leave shit alone. they have to keep moving around people and  now they want to move my ass. Well, fuck them I'm going to look for another job, I don't want to work with those pathetic people in that office. I have an office for a fucking reason: I work alone. nobody in that damn office will be interacting with me AT ALL so I don't see where the fuck they come up with the idea that I can help support them, which is bullshit.

See I try to keep a positive attitude, but these outside factors keep interrupting me and I can't stand this shit. This more of a reason why I need to get my degree: so I can get the fuck out of here and become a manager myself.  Regardless I have to get a positive out of this since I have until the beginning or the mid of 2013 to think up a scheme or some solid plan to make myself happy. I can't let outsiders get in my way at all. me at all.

I can't wait...

to get out of this place. as I think back to the days when I was younger, I can't help but to think how much I hated my life back then because I had a tyrant for a step dad, and a wuss for a mom. Yes, my mom and I aren't on speaking terms, hell we don't communicate at all. My aunt once told me that she was crying one time because she thought that I was dying or some bullshit that my younger sister told her about me dying. Funny how she wants to cry when she thinks I'm dying when she could've let her stupid boyfriend go and stick to her kids, but no. So now, after 20 some odd years or so she wants to cry. After throwing me out the house when I was 17 years old she wants to cry.  I think it's laughable that she's doing that becuase now it doesn't matter, maybe when I was 17, I could have redeemed her, but I think it's too late so whatever.

The only thing I can say is that I'm out for SELF...nobody has ever helped me except for my adopted family, whom I adore to death because My boy's mom and dad were truly the parents I wanted, even if they weren't exactly the lovey dovey types(as my boy describes it), atleast they behaved around me.  I've always been by myself and I continue to be by myself, I have no kids and I have no responsibilities except for my rent and my job and my other utilities, as well as my education that I'm still working on getting. I'm not trying to live the american dream, I'm trying to rape that bitch and mold it into my own liking. I don't need no white picket fences, that's a pipe dream and everybody who isn't a boomer baby knows this bullshit is a fallacy.